I keep trying to move away
Not from you or from us
from these horrible two people
whom I can’t seem to understand.
This cant be us! It can't !
But I seem to be moving away from myself
And from you. So lost and alone....
I feel like u took a punch at me when I was already down
And then kicked me in the gut
There is nothing else to explain this pain
A numbness is taking over.......
Everything matters lesser and lesser.
My insides crawl with the feeling of me…
I wanna get out of this Skin
I fell swallowed up inside Strangled and unable to breathe
Unable to take this pain...
If I stand, My legs will give way
If I speak, My mouth will say things I don’t want to
If I feel, I will hurt If I just stay quiet, I will succumb to this pain
If I think, I will not like what you say or what I say, or do, or not do।
What do I do? Is there a release? Anything…anything at this moment…
I just don’t want to
Stand,
speak,
feel,
stay quiet,
think…
I want to be NUMB......
